Argh.
I thought I can let it go.
but at this moment I can't
I'm feeling really miserable.
the more I tell myself not to think, the more it just comes back.
I din want anyone to see how sad I was, so I chose to be cheerful in front of everyone.
but it is really hard.
I tried to divert my attention.
went out with my classmates and I would get you off my mind for a while.
but when I'm alone, everything just comes back.
the feeling is really painful.
I really cannot stand it anymore.
it's like happy a while, sad a while.
I feel like living in hell everyday.
and I feel stupid.
I dunnoe. How I wish I'm totally immune to everything. how I wish I can forget you. how I hope I dunnoe you at all.
If I dunnoe you at all, I will still be the happy girl I used to be, liking someone else.
I noe I can only bear with it now and soon I'll get over with everything.
but right now I can't.
I'm waiting for the day when I can really get you off my mind totally.
sorry if you're reading this, but I really feel sucky these few days.
help me take my pain away.