HAHA I think I've been influenced by my friends like sweetie lum to read ppl's blogs.
but hmmm blog surfing is fun, though I dun have the habit to do so.
haha.
anyways happy birthday 4o6!
in the end I still didnt get to go for gathering.
1 year plus since I graduated from nanyang.
kinda miss the times I had with 4o6.
and I miss my J1 days.
looking at the juniors reminds me that I'm old.
and that I'm going to leave hwachong soon.
right now there's perhaps 6 mths left before A levels.
if there's no changes to the exam timetable, my first paper shld be on 30th oct, which is cll.
It's going to be week 4 tmr. 6 more weeks to june holidays. 77 days to blocks 2.
A levels is getting nearer and nearer. As much as I wanna do well, I think my attitude is holding me back.
I hate the attitude I have now. I hate the person I see in the mirror.
and I wish I'm still in my childhood days, where I dun have to be troubled by so many things.
Oops I think I'm getting bipolar disorder.
According to About.com, bipolar disoder is defined as an illness that affects thoughts, feelings, perceptions and behavior -.- (quite a simple definition horh)
and according to Yahoo! Health, bipolar disorder causes big mood swings. You can switch from periods of very high energy (manic phases) to periods of sadness (depression).
okay larh I dun think I'm that extreme (I hope I'm right)
but I dunnoe wad's wrong with me either.
one moment I'm fine, but the next moment, something trivial will cause a change in my mood again.
it's an on-off thing. makes me feel as though I'm on a roller coaster.
seems like emo-ing is wad I do often this year. which is BAD.
haha guess I'm too stressed or wadeva.
but anyways, whoever got affected by my moody/pms state, I'm sorry.
especially tooty ):
sorry I didnt mean to vent my anger on you all the time =x
I've alot of things to tell u, but I dunnoe how.
but thanks for tolerating my 大小姐脾气
I always think that I sux. for my behaviour and random tantrums.
hope you're not angry with me. Sooorry >.<
and I'm pissed with myself for getting such SCREWED results for blocks.
I shall really mug from now on. haix not much time left.
I dun wish to let my parents down. I dun wish to make myself regret too.
okayys on a side note, I like 不想懂得 by 張韶涵!
nice nice (:
当世界 不知不觉的变了
有时候 我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
perhaps I'm just too stubborn, refusing to let go of the past